One night, soon after getting my very first internet-connected computer, I was sitting up late on Altavista (anyone remember that?), surfing the Australian National War Memorial site, looking for family records. James Emanuel Callard was KIA on my birthday in 1917 – mowed down in Ypres on the 8th of June, 68 years before I… Continue Reading
Category Archives: Occult Writing
Trench Warfare: The Endless Battle with Poor Self-Esteem
From a very early age, I was taught that I was worthless. A conservative estimate would be around 5000 people, each one of whom told me (often explicitly and unpleasantly) that I was fat, ugly, stupid, useless, an idiot, a nerd, that I deserved to die, and so on. 5000. Most of them were my… Continue Reading
Change and Turmoil – Shiva’s Dance
Its safe to say that the last decade, from 2001 to 2011, have been one of the more… tumultuous in recent history. Starting with 9/11 and the Boxing Day Tsunami, its really just been a fast spiral downhill as far as eyes can tell. And yet, after all of the peak governmental and corporate corruption,… Continue Reading
Duende: Part Two
A continuation of Duende: Part One: Duende is a long and brilliant Gay erotic scifi-fantasy/horror story cowritten with my lover and partner in crime, the amazing canth?Decided. The Alexi of this story is indeed the one and many Alexi Sokolsky, and while this story may hint at his future directions, it in no way gives… Continue Reading
The Shell Guarding the Void: A Response to Luke Romyn’s ‘The Illusion of the Tough Guy’.
This started as a comment to Luke Romyn’s fabulous blog post, The Illusion of the Tough Guy, a raw and fast reflection on his own experiences in the security industry. As a newcomer to that industry, I don’t want to go telling my grandmother to suck eggs (in a manner of speaking), but this is… Continue Reading
Psychopomp: One who Escorts the Dead
Today, one of my cats, Ezekiel, suddenly passed away. He went into massive congestive cardiac failure, and we barely got him to the vet’s before he died. I had another post that I was writing before… but that blog has been put aside for this one. For weeks now, I had been telling my mother… Continue Reading